Pure, innocent

I want to fall so sick, so i wouldn't have to go to school. I want to fall so sick, so i can be skinny. I want to fall so sick, so no one would ever see me. I want to fall so sick, so i can get admitted to the hospital and just hide there. I want to fall so sick, never see the world and let everyone forget about me. I want to fall so sick, maybe anorexic ? I want to fall so sick, never eat, never grow fat. I want to fall so sick, get someone to brainwash me now.

I want to dig a hole, hide in it. Will you pretend i never existed ? Will you pretend nothing ever happened ? Will you pretend that my one-sided love for you is not big (at all) but fake. I guess i have to admit, i cant be who you want me to be. I wont try my best because i'm too lazy to, idontcare,idontwantocare anyway.

I might just try out what Malcolm suggested, swallow down a small amount of raw tooth paste and you'll get the fever of your life. God, save me from this pile of crap.