6.5.10

It really starts to hurt when i pretend it doesn't

You know, the right guy won't get you to change. He won't subtly pressure you. He won't tell you who can and can't talk to. He won't hide the fact that you're hanging out. He's not going to tell you you're wrong for feeling; for being a girl. The right guy will show you off to his friends. He'll take it as slow as you want. He'll only go as far as you're comfortable with. He'll take you out to places, even if it's just a fast food place or the store. He'll actually sit through your stupid, girl Disney movies with you because he just wants to be with you. The right guy will come along someday, you just got to tough it out and wait for him. But whatever you do, don't settle for the wrong guy.

Moving on is so tough but so is holding on to something that may never be. The truth is, you can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel. The truly painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained. It's the good memories that kill you inside out, not the bad ones.

Have you ever wondered about the things we tell ourselves before we fall asleep? We whisper in the dark, telling ourselves we're happy, or that he's happy, that people will change their minds. We persuade ourselves that we can live without the people who have left. Each night before we fall asleep, we lie to ourselves in a desperate hope that come morning, it will all be true. People always think that the most painful truth is losing the one you love. But the truth is, losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much and forgetting that you're special too, is equally painful.

I'm trying to tell myself, you just aren't worth it anymore. You, aren't worth all the tears, heartache and worrying and it's important to know when to let go of someone who only brings me down. I know i've once loved you but i've never believed in 'the perfect one'. I just want to let you know, i have never regret anything that has got to do with you.

It's funny how you still love someone, but you just stop needing them like you used to. Everyone gets hurt in the end.

1 comment:

  1. Hiiii :)
    I like this post.

    "It's funny how you still love someone, but you just stop needing them like you used to."

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