we will be a dream

Oh shizzles i am so in love with You're beautiful, this is not good!!!! Wheeee!!!! Jeremy is so retarded but i love him, ahaaaaaaaa, i've been watching this Korean love comedy for the past five hours, i don't wanna return to school tmr! I wish my measles gets worse, okay, what am i talking about? i just went insane, bye.

Truth been told, i'm already yours.

This is really bad :/ My fever was 39.4 last night, i really thank God it's back to a normal temperature now. I went to school yesterday morning and after that, i went home. I think i slept for over twenty hours, i'm really good! I found out who my form teacher is, i am dead meat la. But nonetheless, I CANT WAIT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!!

what if i don't know what to say?

It's okay to want someone you can't have. It's okay to keep friendships when you don't want them, or want something more. It's okay to cry when you're hurt, and it's okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. I believe, somehow it's going to be okay.

i remember everything

Emiko and Darlene took all the photos and they want you guys to see it, they said 'hello' to everyone who sees this.

awake, but i'm still dreaming

Hi Kenneth duck and Sissy duck, thank you for visiting me hehe. It was really tough being sick, i literally vomited everything i ate and today, i came to realize that i'm allergic to panadol. sucks isn't it? My cheeks are red and swollen, it itches quite badly too, haha! But i'm glad i went to church today, love felt the air and i was so touched :) It was so good to see Bryan lee after a while, i had to give him a warm hug. Love Moen, Neal, Josh lee, Josh J, Bryan Lim, Bernard, Boon kiat, Jiayu, Jicai, Leila, Kat Wong, Sarah and Eng loong and so many more. It's good i gave Sun a hug too, glad to see her back again, really miss her. Lunch with Uncle Nick, Auntie Lillian, mum and dad at Big eater, omg yay good food makes me a happy girl. We went shopping for the new wall papers for the new house, haha i'm home right now. I might just want to pack for school, take a nap, wake up for dinner and facebook and go back to sleep.

i can still feel you

recording was great. universal studios at night with bernard was fantastic too. i am sick and this sucks, goodnight.

the measure of the human heart

My head really hurts, i feel like vomiting and i need sleep. I slept for two hours again in the afternoon after coming home. I had breakfast/lunch with dad at Holland village, feels a century since i last went there but yes, we ate nasi lemak and that made us happy people :) hehehe i got my Blackberry back, you can't imagine how happy i am just touching it. like Bernard said: no more jia pa lang phone! woohoo. i agree, jia pa lang phones are not good!! Happy he's back from KL but he fell asleep. Practice for album recording was alright :) I had ice-cream with Leila and Neal at Swensens today, good time! Sorry, my camera is really heavy and i have been too lazy carrying it out.

how could we lose sight of what matters most?

how do i describe this feeling? school's starting next week, it's too fast. i want time to multiply. i'm not sure if anyone of you've ever felt like that. things will start to change again right? how could i forget? because of the shit i got in to, new class, new mates, new teachers next term. when school starts, i'm going to be away from my Jiang yun and Audrey. who's going to stand up for me when i'm late for lessons? who am i going to make fun of in my new class? who's going to steal my sim card back for me when my phone gets confiscated again? who's going to insult the teachers together with me? and will i still have the usual lunch with the guys on wednesday? maybe not, because things has or will change. i don't want to start thinking again. i want to sleep for a thousand years, or just not exist. or just not be aware that i exist. that's why i'm trying not to think. i just want all this to stop spinning. i'm losing everybody. i just lost you. i might never get you back, but it's okay. but i can't afford to start losing everyone around me. why is no one ever listening? i've face decisions, made choices. i kept moving forward, telling myself "it's alright, it'll be fine soon." but sooner or later, i look back at where i've been and wonder who i really am. right now as i shut my eyes and think hard and deep about who or what true friends are, i can't really understand what it means. true? i don't know, and i give up thinking about it. but well, if there are no broken hearts, then there's no healing right? if there's no healing, then there is no learning. and i think, if there's no learning, then there's no struggle. but the struggle is a part of life. and i guess, everything will be alright soon. i'll make new friends in my new class with new teachers. i can't be there for you physically but i will always be there, somehow. i never get tired of loving but i get tired of waiting, assuming and hurting. i'm not perfect, i've made mistakes, screw up and i'm sorry.

There are so many people in my head

we all seek the truth

lunch with the guys made me really happy, thank youuuu. it's a great day and i'm glad they're part of my day. good catching up with them again, they've all been pretty busy. i'll post play nation's pictures on the next post :) dinner with Aric at soup spoon. happy time talking to Bryan and Mark, jokers forever.

take me there

Emiko is crying over some stupid dog that had brain cancer in my favorite Hong Kong show and my mother made me switch it off because she kept crying, dammit!

now you know

good morning, it's nine fourty two pm and i just took a two hour power nap and i feel good. okay maybe if only i don't have that many messages to reply and things to settle, it'll be better but i'm just glad with life now, glad that i'm getting my Blackberry back on Thursday. a blink of an eye? it's a month already.

the A-team is an surprisingly awesome show, i really enjoyed it with Cheryl today. it's been quite a while since we've hung out and it's great to spend time with her again :) we had Red mango tgt, love it and not sick of it, two times this week and i'm guilty cause it's 99.7% fat free. yes, uncle peter was like: but still got 0.3%, be careful.

You can still love someone, and be wrong for them

I'm done losing sleep over you. I'm done holding back tears at the thought of you. I'm done being depressed over something stupid like you. I'm done asking the same questions that go unanswered. I'm done wonder what on earth you're thinking. I'm done.

i like being alone way too much

Kenneth: Hello! Why you take with flash? disrespectful!

The Karate kid is an amazing show, damm! I really love it, love the company too! It's so good to see Zac's mum again today, love her to bits :) Hahaha Aric's being a retard on msn, i hope i'll sleep earlier tonight since my mid-night telephone buddy is far far away ~

boring ?

Dinner last night ~

life cannot go on without much forgetting

i'm blogging abnormally at 5:25 am in the morning, okay, i'm waiting for Bernard to wake up so i can apologize for falling asleep, again. especially when he's leaving for kl later in the morning. I was so touched by his text message, i've found a friend indeed.

sometimes we love because we really want to stay

You win some, you lose some. Things don’t always work out the way they are supposed to. I guess if its meant to be, things will always find a way. And even if it doesn’t, you will always have my heart. I have to stop crying right now and get over things even though i don't understand what the hell is going on.

But unlike you, I can’t just walk away. I can’t simply forget what we had. It’s not that easy for me to let go of something that was such a huge part of my life. I guess it really mattered to me.

there's a little bit of you in everything.

Happy Sunday everybody! Happy Fathers' day too :) Lunch at Dhoby with Moen, Neal and the rest. Sissy and i were crazy, we went mad again, last night was a horror because she started laughing at every little thing but that made my night :> I bought my dad his Fathers' day present along with Bernard and Aric, thank you for making sure i was safe by sending me home. Dinner at Angus steak house as a family, yayyyyyyyy it was awesome hehe cannot stand it! okay my dad finally bought a cordless phone, thank God i brought it up! But isn't it too late when i'm going to shift in two months? sucker, this sucks.