believe it or not, it's my life. let me live it, thanks.

I am truly thankful that life is finally picking up, i'm definitely looking forward to better days! It's SUNDAY thank you Jesus! Well, we all live for the weekends we'll never remember. Church was awesome as usual :-) Lunch with the cell group @ Terminal 3 visited my other grandparents and i luv their food too he he! B's getting pretty comfortable with my grand's, both grand's treated him very very very good food, unfair :( B and I went off, spend some happy time tgt before meeting King Rudi and Servant Gugan HAHAHA our palace growing . . . Prince Bernard and Princess Vev accompanied them to shop, mm jolly good time especially with the King being his usual self hiak hiak!! Yuppies thank you for accompanying me home B, love you so much that not even the truth can change my mind. Have a great week ahead everybody! With love, V.

I wish I could just hug you right now

SaTTTuRRRRRRRdaY HoooOoOooOORAyyyy!!!! I'm in luv with Saturdays and today was one of the best Saturdays OH YEAH. I was awaken and frightened by the crazy storm at 6 am this morning since i slept with the windows wide opened, B called me to asked if i was alright, Yup at 6 am in the morning!!! He came over to my house in the morning. . . power nap!!!!! We had lunch (i cooked lunch and yes, the kitchen is perfectly fine ok) left for cgm tgt at Jess's and had dinner with Min, Sissy and B @ Grand parent's restaurant YUMMYLIZATION oh and we all got insane after dinner like HARDCORE HELL YEAH INSANE (Y) SSSSSSATURDDDAYYYYYOMGOMGOMGOMGYIPEEEEEYAYAYAYAYAY

I want that feeling back

TGIF :-) It's Friday, i luv Fridays. School was great, surprisingly . . . Probably just enjoying the last few weeks tgt with my classmates, hmm going to miss them terribly. I went to Clarke quay with Jills, Dory, Bev, Stacy and Nic! Jills had the strong urge to cab and that awful idea got planted in my head as well!! Gah anyway Bernard met us there and we went to City hall. Rudi our king was suppose to meet us but he over slept so he came much later. I met Liyun for tea at Secret Recipe (yummilization!) Leila came to join us after a while , miss her! I met Jin yi for dinner (ho i had Provence bread heh) and Aric came to meet us in the night :-) I luv talking to Jin yi, some how he understands almost everything! The joy of having understanding friends. Hmm met Damon at the club near my place, thanks for walking me home bud! It's a pleasant Friday but i'm not contented. I want my life to be filled with surprises and happiness all the time and some times i want to cry because i just don't know what to do, will you please assure me that i will never have to go through anything alone, ever again, because i have you now? Goodnight, hello weekends!

like we used to

Most nights, i can't seem to go to bed because my mind is consumed with the thought of how much easier it would be if you were by my side. I miss all the little things and i never thought that they'd mean everything to me. I'm just glad that very soon, things will be back to normal. That is the only thing that made my week, love you B. 

I am terrified of loss

Today was alright , alright means normal. I went to see Adel today , love her! I ate really good sambal chicken rice at the hawker centre near my house , mm.

I need to rant ok? I'm going to rant on my blog this whole week , bare with me. You know, things change and friends leave and life doesn't stop for anybody. The hardest thing you can give is the truth. The truth is awkward, and very often, the truth hurts. people think they want the truth, but, do they really? You are going to lose people in your life and i begin to realize that no matter how much time you spent with them, or how much you appreciated them and told them so, it will never seem like it was enough. I am not some shiny, pretty thing. Tongue tied and tired, no clue what's wrong or what you need to feel like yourself again because this is so weak, so this whole crap isn't suppose to happen to me.

let's laugh until we cry

School was . . .  school. I'm not sure how long i can pretend for , all i know is that i've been trying to make myself feel better. I should probably break this horrible news to everybody and let the whole world look at me in shame and laughter. This week is another tough week, it shall pass soon, the mocking will come and that too, shall pass. I keep wondering where did i go wrong and i think . .  i deserve this. I know deep inside that things are going to turn out the way they're meant to and nothing's going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out but somethings you just have to let it be or let go. So instead of asking why and procrastinating, i should accept that it is how it is. There is no way to change this, but i can love it. I want to love it. I will learn to love it. God, you're in full control.

People get mad and they get over it

School was horrible, i don't want to disclose anything yet. Bernard, Boon kiat, Aric, Jun han, Damon, Bryan lee and I celebrated J saw's belated birthday! I'm sure he's a happy boy :-) love you! I went to Andro's house in the evening, thanks for cheering me up with a disgusting dinner and "Guess who?" which made me happier. Thanks for everything.

Will you live or simply exist?

To my favorite police man Kenneth koh! Five sentences as promised :-) Thank you for being so nice and good all the time! You are the best guitar teacher in the whole wide world, love you forever! Oh i can't wait for Fish & co. with you soon, woo hoo!

Yuppies loving Sundays! Lunch with the cell group at Terminal 1, Watched the match with Aric (changed of shopping plans), Dinner with Rudi, Yu sung and Bernard. Sorry, no pictures :( Have a good week ahead everybody!

you are what i want

wow it's an amazing and refreshing day! Started my day happily with Boon kiat, break fast :-) We went to Chiltern for our rehearsal ha ha, Pri 6 party went great! The drama was good. Afterwards was combined cell group and Movie night @ Mia's! Happy girl :-) Thank you for your unfailing love baby!