let's laugh until we cry

School was . . .  school. I'm not sure how long i can pretend for , all i know is that i've been trying to make myself feel better. I should probably break this horrible news to everybody and let the whole world look at me in shame and laughter. This week is another tough week, it shall pass soon, the mocking will come and that too, shall pass. I keep wondering where did i go wrong and i think . .  i deserve this. I know deep inside that things are going to turn out the way they're meant to and nothing's going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out but somethings you just have to let it be or let go. So instead of asking why and procrastinating, i should accept that it is how it is. There is no way to change this, but i can love it. I want to love it. I will learn to love it. God, you're in full control.