leave me something to wake up to

I'm terribly sorry i haven't been blogging much this days . . . been rlly busy with rehearsals, trips, camp and oh i almost forgot to mention, a boyf. talking abt boyfriends, i think i make a terrible girlfriend because right now, i want to love my boyfriend for both what he is and who he is and sometimes, it's annoying because he just can't live up to my expectations. maybe i expect too much but speak abt keeping to your words and making more effort. don't even breathe a word abt such bull shit if you don't even try or take the first step, it only make my hopes high and all i get eventually is, nothing. crushed hopes thanks to you B, i want to rip you alive.