hey heartache

I spent half my day perfectly fine and i was going to conclude that today is fantastic when actually it isn't. yup i'm suppose to be thrilled that my holidays just started, everything seems so good until i really pause and think about how much has changed. my best friend's birthday is today, honestly didn't really remember until midnight. Didn't get him a present, neither did i turn up at his concert because tickets were sold out and i didn't have my camera. all i did was sent him "Hi best friend, happy birthday!" and received a "Hey bestie! (: Thanks hahaha (: catch up soon! (:" oh how horrible can i get as a person? I decided to go for Bernard's match with Neal instead and the weather was bad so we decided to cab and the match was postponed, mm hmm! afterwards, received sad news that Kai's going to transfer to an international school after camp this week. to end my night, received news that my Hong kong trip is going to be postponed to this Sunday. I'm mean like, WHY THIS SUNDAY DAMMIT. I barely saved enough for the trip and i was really hoping B could come with me during August. plus, i'm still wondering how i survived without my camera for the past week, it feels quite horrible. especially when i realize it's been spammed with thousands of photographs which will cause the shutter speed to slow down after a while? I cried. Happy holidays to me ~ i promise i'll do a proper blog post tomorrow, goodnight.