haven't had this kind of post for the longest time, good to rant sometimes. not exactly ranting, just feel really confuse about everything. The fear of losing someone is really over whelming. Yes, many of you think Bernard and I just have this typical relationship. we either break up or get married and all of you obviously are going to say we'd break up because we are still young and bla bla bla but when i think of my future, he is some how in it. I don't ever want to lose Bernard. He mean more to me then all of you may think. He's part of my life, and i hope he stays. If i were to lose him, it'd be living hell. I can live without him but i really don't want to.
I've come to a point where he's just part of me, I know it sounds weird, but i mean in my heart. And i promise, this feeling will never go away. I don't even remember what it's like being without him. Through those fights and arguments, i've realized how much it's changed me. Having each other is the only thing we'll need and we'll get through it all with our flaws and fights. I guess sometimes high expectations kind of ruins everything for the both of us but at the end of the day, we still make it through. we still make the effort to end the day well and i am grateful. all our fights and lies made us stronger.
wish i could be sleeping in his arms right now, hope he's sleeping well : ) miss b so much already. i guess this isn't really ranting anymore, more of a #thankyoubernard kind of post GOODNIGHT for real now ~
No comments:
Post a Comment