"of course you're going to get your heart broken. and it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. that's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. then you can handle it better the next time. you may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. and you'll be a stronger person because of it. then, one day, someone will come along, and it'll all pay off, and no one will ever break your heart again."
funny how we call that "love", it hurts and yet it is so beautiful. and so while this is completely against my beliefs, i'm going to continue loving you because i made that decision from the beginning. that decision to take a chance with you. without worrying whether you'll give anything back. or if you're going to hurt me or if you're really the one. love, makes me so vulnerable. it takes hostages. it eats me out and leaves me crying in the darkness, it hurts.
i honestly don't understand why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go. it's like we're scared to lose what we don't really have. some of us say we'd rather have that something than nothing, but the truth is to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all. i've always believe that relationships are worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting.
but well, someday, i will forget the hurt, the reasons i cried, and who caused the pain. don't get me wrong, i still believe that love is out there. and that dreams come true everyday. i will always fight until i can't anymore, and then be fought for
"if God doesn't give you what you want, it isn't what you need. when God takes something away from your grasp, He is not punishing you but merely emptying your hand to receive something better."
what i've learned is not to change who you are, because eventually, you're going to run of new things to become. life, love. it is never going to be enough
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