I wish you were here to hear what i would say

it's only half my friday gone and it has been going well, told you i love fridaysssssss. TGIF! school was a major blast, happy national day! the celebration was great, everyone was extremely hyper and happy. it was like a national day zouk or butter factory just that we were lacking some alcohol to make everything complete, lol. i love st margs! and i can't wait for the next half of my friday, i'm going to pom pom now, bye bye and i'll blog again in the night!!!! ^.~

worrying is a waste of time

overdue pictures, ooops.

i am happy to say that today is the best thursday throughout the month, i didn't attend drama lesson because i had a bad headache and mum came to pick me home. i had a short nap, felt so much better. ah really going to enjoy life for the next few days, though dad just left for Bali this afternoon. i met Bernard and Rudi for dinner at Takashimaya before my piano lesson, happy to catch up :) yay it's Friday tomorrow, who doesn't love Friday? :>

sweet sniggers

i want a boy who will move the hair away from my eyes, and then kiss me. who will hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. a boy who will sing to me at random moments. who lets me sleep on his chest. i want a guy who will tell his family and friends all about me. bring me soup or orange juice when i'm sick. i want a guy who will call me 3 times a day if he went away. a boy who will apologize for calling too much, and no matter how many times i tell him it's okay, he'd still do it. a boy who will let me gossip to him and just smile and agree with everything i say. a boy who will throw stuffed animals at me when i acted dumb and then jump on me and kiss me a million times. who will bet kisses on who could beat who on games. who makes fun of me just to make me laugh. a boy who will take me to the park, put his hands around my waist and give me bear hugs all the time. a boy who will kiss my neck, just to have a reason to tell me how much he loves my new perfume. i want a boy who, at night, who will dance in his pyjamas with me. a boy who will take pictures in photo booths with me, someone who will never turn down a trip to the lake and who will go on a picnic with me. a boy who could sit with me on the kitchen floor and eat sandwiches. who will kiss me in the pouring rain. i want a boy who would try to teach me how to play the guitar, even if we just end up laughing at each other. i want a boy who will run his fingers through my hair, share his lollipops with me, and get along with all of my friends. someone who would never be afraid to say i love you in front of his friends and someone who would argues with me about silly things just to make up. i want a boy who will kiss me at midnight on new years and who will make funny faces at me when i'm on the phone. i want a boy who will count stars with me and be friends with my family. i want a boy who will stay home with me on a friday night just to help me make dinner and watch movies together under the same blanket. someone who will squirt water guns at me in the house after i've got him soaked. a boy who could make me laugh like no one else can. i want a boy who would hold me closer than normal when i'm sick, and would play with my hair. but mostly, i want a boy who will always be there for me.

don't all girls wish for their dream boy? that's my dream boy, huu huu. it's little more than amazing but yes, that's the way i want it. hard to find? i'll keep on waiting.

don't hold back

oh goodness, it was a really awesome day. i was honestly dreading the Science centre trip but it turned out exciting. I guess it's a really crazy day, well, it's Wednesday and Wednesdays are the best days apart for Fridays :> mm, today! running away, screaming and hiding under the table from a huge bee in the classroom, library in the canteen, ytf ftw, making teachers angry, sleeping during math lesson because teng is too freaking boring, free period at the hub, photo booths, caramel milk tea + pop corn chicken, drama mates, bus trips, cat fights, explosions, retarded lecturer, amazing chemistry, animal rings and mr goh makes my day.

i ended it well, dinner with joshua lee and bernard at Far east plaza. that's all folks, enjoy the peektures, have a good wednesday.

wrap your loving arms around me

holy molly, i nearly got in to a whole lot of trouble just now, thankfully, i got away this time. hahaha Bernard, i bet you were really worried too, phew. yes yes, study date with Bernard. productive? mm, let me think, no. i was just shivering in the room trying to study biology and at the same time, avoiding Bernard's wink* He think he's cool and sexy like that, can't help it.

these things take time

My heart is aching so bad.

I am so happy, yet so sad. You know that feeling?

I don't think i'm even making sense here, oh well,

goodnight.

Necessary sadness

oh hell yeah, i tried koi for the first time in my life today, at least, i'm as cool as Elijah now since he's a koi addict. it sucks to have bad cramps, ouch. lessons were such a bore as usual but i'm thankful for awesome pals to keep me company, love you girls! YTF FTW, hahaha (Dorothy, Jillyn, Bev, Danielle, Stacy) i can't wait for study date tomorrow! happy to be spending so much time with Bernard, after all the busy days.

tiny changes occur

Throughout life you will meet one person who is unlike any other. You could talk to this person for hours and never get bored, you could tell them things and they wouldn't judge you. I think i've found this person and i never want to let you go.

life's more painless for the brainless

I crashed my curfew by two hours, i'm rather awesome but i kind of forgot there's school tomorrow. Hmm kind of sucks right ? Anniversary celebration today was great, lunch with the cell group at Bishan while i had a good talk with Pia Jac! Aric, Bernard and i decided to roam around as usual, 313 @ somerset, mm.

It's the good memories that kill me inside out, not the bad ones.

I wanted to believe so badly that there was a way out of this. I've learnt that people are going to walk away from you in life and you'll end up losing some of them. No matter how hard you tried, or how much you appreciated them and told them so, it will never seem like it was enough. You know i'm talking about you and there hasn't been one day since you left where i haven't fought the overwhelming urge to put you back into my life but i guess, no matter how hard i try, i can't find the words to say goodbye. I suddenly realize that i'm just pretending to be over you just to ease my pain of knowing that i will never have you back. You think that letting go is one way of making things better but for me, i'm letting go because i'm hurting too much and i'm moving on because things are not like before. I can honestly say that up till now, i still don't understand what's going on. After all we've been through, you just gave up. I'm tired of waiting. It's just painful, to say goodbye, to someone that i don't want to let go of but isn't it going to hurt even more to ask you to stay if we can never make this friendship work out the way it should? I don't want to keep being the girl that keeps crying about the same things. I should be getting somewhere somehow but i'm neither here nor there. I'm trying to convince myself that there's a reason why you're not in my life now. Someone please tell me to stop wasting too much time missing someone from the past. Tell me i have to accept that life's never constant; things change and people grow apart. Tell me to stop thinking about how good it used to be; I know i'll keep moving forward and don't give a crap about anybody thinks. You know? I'll keep moving forward and do what i have to do. I don't want to be like you, it sucks.