to create, is to destroy

Today was rather ironic, cried buckets in the morning and laughed a lot at night. long story but a rather happy day, i love Saturdays! met up Damon, Aric, Jerald and Vincent for shopping - not exactly productive for me!!! was suppose to meet my bro, Rudi after a long time but . . . so sorry!!! met B for dinner, yum yum to Japanese food!!!!! pardon the low quality photographs, they're from my Blackberry!

Half heartedly

You're one of the most important people in my life, ever, in my world. but i'm honestly not sure how long we're going to drag this thing, i'm not sure how long i can stand this crap and i'm honestly on the verge of letting go. everyday it's like "please please please please please let me get what i want this time" and i hope and hope and hope and hope and hope and expect and expect and expect and expect, and finally, bam! bull shit and all the tears just starts flowing out. I can't keep being your second choice, not when you're my first.  my thought of you has been crippling me and i wish i could put all these thoughts in a jar and i honestly have no idea what i'm doing with my life. i have an undecided heart, and it is searching for an escape. I just want to be happy again, happy again with you. I need to stop living in doubt and know that this is true for me, i want everything to make sense with you and i want to go to sleep/wake up in the morning with a purpose, i don't want to fade away.

cherish the lies

TGIF! worst Friday of my year, but i still had fun with awesome bros! Lunch with the usual at the factory, mmm good and yummy food! Business studies was fun, had to group with Kelvin and the rest, hmm weird but funny experience. Mr Kenny said our group promoted our products like gangsters, most definitely not my fault, had to blame the boys and their tone of promoting lol!!! movie night with Joshua jeya and Aric(a) . .  Season of the witch, oh my goodness . . . it was one breath taking movie, har but nice show :-) dinner with the both of them at Indulge!!! had a really good talk with Aric(a) before heading home, just glad that someone understands.

I'm a mess

Thursday, good start to lessons!!! although i reached school one hour fifteen minutes earlier thinking my lesson starts at 9:15 am when it starts at 10:30 am, there goes almost an hour of my sleep!!! :( Lunch with Shaun and Aloysious during our one hour lunch break, yum yum western food! met B after school, went over to his parent's place. had a good nap time! had light-dinner, cereal chicken + bee hoon hor fun yummylization!! was suppose to head for piano lesson but skipped it because i was running late, too late! i had a rather average Thursday, happy to see Bernard though :-)

Closer to love

the end of orientation and i'm proud to say that my group, Team 3 emerged champions!! thankful for an amazing leader and friend, Remus - Team 3 huat ah! played amazing race, monopoly deal version around the whole of Scape! happy to meet up with Daniel and the dance team again, feels weird dancing back at O school though, hah. lunch with Kai ying, Clara and Esmeralda before heading back to school, awesome! Sebastian was being funny, copying all my feed back form answers T_T loving my school mates!

cause my heart is yours

hi there, second day of orientation and school! very very very awesome indeed :-) "amazing race" around the school area, really help us understand the school better. i know this is random but . . . i suddenly can't wait for my CNY planzzzz ah omg omg omg so excited! anyway, B picked me up from school :> :> :> sigh going to have very little time from this week onwards, sucks to be thinking of my schedule :( lunch with my boyfriend at Royal's cafe before dental nom nom, thanks for sending me home dearest. lovely and simple days like today, facing the sea, looking to the sky. counting our stars and the wind against our faces, priceless.

something feels missing, i feel so empty inside

floating skies

First day of City college, better than i expected. returned to St Margs early in the morning to settle the transfer administration work, was hoping to eat YTF but . . . nah! met up some of the St Margs girls before leaving, really going to miss them all! breakfast with dad at Mac donalds before heading to school :-) i was too early for school but Josh thankfully came early as well! orientation was normal. school was released early today, lunch with Josh, Aloysious and my new friend Shaun. really funny guy who sucks at social networking webs hahaha "you add me on Facebook then i go and accept uh?" "NO LA GO AND IGNORE"

forget saying goodbye

Hi Sunday! whoopies lunch with the cg at 313 @ Somerset, played Monopoly deal like crazy with Eng loong, Sheila, Sean, Aloysious and Josh!!!! Lepak at Orchard central with Neal, Shaun, Sean, Josh, Aric, Gabriel and Min ying. a real big pity that i left my cammy with B when he left for his match :'( we did a lot of crazy stuff, hmm part of growing up and the joy of being a teenager hah! played hide and seek in Cold's storage lol. met B to collect my camera and he sent me home, really sweet of him :')

honestly can't wait to head for the first day of school tomorrow along with Aloysious and Josh, they'll probably be my best buddies until i really start making friends. I'm going to miss St Margs and their YTF like shizzles.

Where do we go from here?

Date night with B was really awesome, i love lazy Saturdays like today! dad made breakfazz for me in the morning yum yum, accompanied him to the office and mum came to pick me after. met aunt Ailin and she's back to Singapura for a visit! :-) brought her around Resorts world before heading back to our house. watched a little bit of gossip girl before taking a two hour nap, whoop whoop shiokalization! met B, waited for the late Joan grrrrr heh had dinner with him at Hairloom and Caramel, even more yum yum! shopping time at Orchard before meeting Jerald and Louis for a while. Finally met mum and aunt Karen after they were stuck in the car park for one hour ten mins, wooh. great Saturday, looking forward to Sunday . . . then first day of school (ah so nervous, what should i wear uh? attire: smart casual)

I don't need anything (but you)

TGIF!!!!!! today was really good and sad, my last day in St Margs :'( definitely going to miss my friends and teachers. went for my entry test at City college, proud to say that i scored really well :-) was suppose to meet Sissy but i took the wrong bus, phone died and was in deep crap. gah so sorry girl, will make it up to you! met Bernard for dinner at Newton nom nom nom like crazy before our Monopoly deal #2! it was a draw, hmm not bad.

another teenage tragedy

mmm CCA fair was good, though i didn't stay for long and i was spending most of the time on the concert. met Bernard for dinner + Monopoly deal today and yesssssssssss i won him whoopies!! can't wait for round two tmr!!! piano lesson was normal zzz . . . entry test tomorrow, hoping for the best! :-)