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Monday blues, totally! was late for school, but well . . . didn't really enjoy school today. went over to my aunt's office to study a bit before shopping with my mum. met Sun at Skin and picked a few clothing out for me to try, bought a few but i was so sad mum didn't want to buy me the dress i really liked :/ even Lucas said i looked good in it!!! anyway, painted my nails BYMYSELF today #achievement

illustrations of life

HAPPIEST SUNDAY EVERRRRRRR, i haven't felt this happy and contented with my day in the longest time!! and i really owe it all to my boy, he woke up at seven am just to accompany me down to Mountbatten to watch my rehearsal and performance! one of the smallest and most humble performance i have ever done, yet, it's little things that makes a difference. the smile on all the audience's faces, priceless. and what "wow" me the most is the picture that Irene posted on Twitter of Peter and i performing that hit over eight hundred views!! http://plixi.com/p/93183954

spent the late morning and afternoon sleeping at B's parent's place, extremely exhausted!! went to town to shop a little, met Kenneth and we went to support our beloved music director Mervyn and his band at Stardust 2011!! I'm not being bias but their band is definitely one of the best, no doubt they'll be in the finals! afterwards, Bernard and i did what all couples would do . .  neoprints, and no, it's not lame, it's just for memory sake. thanks b, for today, for sacrificing. btw we cabbed four times today, total record breaker!

to bbg esmer, pls pls pls pls cheer up <3

marinating my own madness

I seriously detest today and i was hoping it'll be so much better, i don't even want to start ranting about how much i hate irresponsible and useless boys, they get on my nerves and all i want to do right now it throw rocks at them (reminded of the "useless boys" i bought for Moen a few years back) actually, HIM to be specific. rehearsal at Suntec with Peter and Kelly, don't want to mention my afternoon. cell group before da's birthday party at Aloha ~ hardest location to find, everrrrrrrr

to infinity and the stars

I have been feeling so troubled the past few weeks and i just need to pour everything out. I wake up at three or five am every morning because of horrible and sad thoughts and it's just killing me. I've been so negative about everything all this time and i'm just lying to myself. My whole world is just crashing down, falling apart and shattering, leaving me to pick up the pieces. It's like i feel happy and sad. Sometimes both at the same time. I expect so much from everything and i get nothing but disappointments in return, i thought i know exactly what i want but i'm not so sure anymore. I feel pathetic and it's driving me nuts. so much emotions in my head, i really don't understand how people stand me sometimes. I miss Bernard, i wish he was here with me right now and not in that bloody camp, i just need him by my side for that will make me feel more than just complete. I JUST NEED TO CUDDLE WITH HIM AND FEEL AT PEACE. LIKE NOW. AND I NEED TO STOP FEELING SO LOST DAMMIT

drunk words

saddest FRAIDAY ever, watching my good friend Esmeralda cry for the first time, really broke my heart. totally understand how it's like to be in her shoes :'( school was normal, floorball was just moodless . . . thankful that i had a peaceful night at the Helix bridge along with Kai ying, Adora, Joash, Mr David, Yong zi, YM, HJ, Esmeralda, and David. took some beautiful photos of the beautiful view in Singapore, will post it up on the next post :-) dinner* at Krazy burgers @ Marina bay sands with them, nice. oh and btw the first picture is a portable low fat yogurt omgggg cool or what?

crashing satellites

been mugging like mad the past few days, sigh feeling kind of miserable being sick and all . . . sigh so many assignments catching up, i'm just glad that the pace that i'm going is good for the deadline :-) love Wednesdays because lessons ends early!! headed back to St Margs for lunch, caught up with Amber and i really miss her !! we're going to hang at Holland next week, whoop whoop so sexcitedddd. met Bernard to study at Romulus, love the tea thr ~~~ dinz at the harbour market before he sent me home, truly thankful for him.

been waking up at weird hours the past few weeks, been having weird dreams about death and losing people in my life. it actually creeps me out. i bet Bernard's irritated over the fact that i call him at three am every morning because i feel insecure. and the boys in my class needs to stop making fun of Josh and I, it's not even funny anymore!! and everyone needs to stop making fun of my damm pimple and my dad needs to stop calling me names like "fatty" and "pimple face" last warning!!!!

tainted paper hearts

my Sunday started out horribly, my dad just had to rub it in the morning and in the afternoon, it just got worst. but whatever, lunch* with the cg before watching Never say never with Bernard, haha yup Never say never. it's actually quite a nice show and my impression of Bieber kind of changed. dinz at Jap secret hideout lol at somerset before heading home early for a nap in attempt to start on Business assignment now. totally just realized that i left my notes with Adora #fail, sigh three days to due date, tolong tolong let it be easy!! God be with me!

forcing laughters, faking smiles

haw haw haw to Saturday! can't wait for date day tomorrow ~~ today was boring, woke up early and went to B's house! delicious YTF at French, Kitchener road. boy do i miss #smssYTF!!! ok honestly, i miss my st margs mates, i feel so distant from all of them right now and it isn't a really good feeling. anyway had a horrible hair trim on my fringe at Francis & Jean in the afternoon. cell at William's was alright, had a good time catching up with friends. dinner + monopoly deal with Mark, Kim, Bev, Shaun and William before meeting Bernard. goodnight!

i sold my soul to santa claus

God just realize how much gossip i'm missing out in school during camp, regret times a million jeez!! I feel as though i'm lagging behind, gah!! usual lunch with the girls before meeting Bernard, Rudi, Yu sung and Dexterrrr for a while :-) ah so happy to finally see my boy hehe (can't wait for dd on SUNDAY) met mum afterwards, piano lesson was normal. family time at Sushi tei hahahaha my dad is the kutest <3 <3 <3 Darlene: mum your hair ugly! Dad: WHY YOU SAY MY GIRLFRIEND HAIR UGLY?? Vevien, when mum and i got married, her hair was this short. . . reminds me of the first time when we fell in love ~~~ Vev: dad pls pls pls shut up!!

a light that never goes out

greetings, i'm finally back in Singapore! Hong kong was really enjoyable, chiong shopping like crazy!!! hehe air plane food was the best, didn't really get to eat dim sum in Hong kong!