little open window

hello, my Friday was good : ) accompanied mum the whole morning. dropped Darlene off to school before picking Mik's up for lunch. she's finally out of camp!! her first camp : ) lunch at our usual Jap restaurant @ Takashimaya before mum sent me to school. Mik's came along and i baby sat her the whole day #powerpack! watched Cars 2 with Esmer and Kai before heading to potong pasir to meet Bern. met Esmer and Kai agn along with Gerann for dinner at Pasta mania! Awfully choc for ice cream afterwards, fun filled day! more excited for tmr : ) have a good weekend guys! 

sugar gives you nightmares

haven't had this kind of post for the longest time, good to rant sometimes. not exactly ranting, just feel really confuse about everything. The fear of losing someone is really over whelming. Yes, many of you think Bernard and I just have this typical relationship. we either break up or get married and all of you obviously are going to say we'd break up because we are still young and bla bla bla but when i think of my future, he is some how in it. I don't ever want to lose Bernard. He mean more to me then all of you may think. He's part of my life, and i hope he stays. If i were to lose him, it'd be living hell. I can live without him but i really don't want to.

I've come to a point where he's just part of me, I know it sounds weird, but i mean in my heart. And i promise, this feeling will never go away. I don't even remember what it's like being without him. Through those fights and arguments, i've realized how much it's changed me. Having each other is the only thing we'll need and we'll get through it all with our flaws and fights. I guess sometimes high expectations kind of ruins everything for the both of us but at the end of the day, we still make it through. we still make the effort to end the day well and i am grateful. all our fights and lies made us stronger.

wish i could be sleeping in his arms right now, hope he's sleeping well : ) miss b so much already. i guess this isn't really ranting anymore, more of a #thankyoubernard kind of post GOODNIGHT for real now ~

to be purely content

i'm totally in the holiday mood ~ woke up at ten am this morning, left the house with mum and went to visit Zachary at the hospital. went to the wrong hospital but well, i still made it in time to see him out of the operating theatre. glad that the operation had no complications although thr was a lot of side effect. he was tearing and puking non stop, heart wrenching : ( praying that he'll get better! went over to bb's house and we were insane. attempted to quarrel in hokkien but i obviously failed, haha had a good laugh : ) dinner with Bernard and Yu sung at Alexandra marx before they had tuition. sjp, collection of results slip tmr, not thrilled.at.all. in fact, i'm just lazy. ok goodnight

until every dream is caught

Happy Wednesday and best news ever: giving school a miss tomorrow! what can be better than skipping school on a Thursday? Thursdays are longgggg and dragyyyyy : ( anyway, math re-test was sooooo good!! kekex am happy :3 skipped lunch break with the girls to save my stomach for ban mian and ice cream : ) met two ponners - Kai and Tas at Thomsom! Ban mian (my bowl of joy) was amazing as usual, Starbux before grabbing ice cream at Awfully chocolate @ Sembawang hills and . . bumping in to my manager Jenni, not funny man, i was freaked out because i forgot abt work yesterday and she didn't reply my "sorry" text : ( but whatever, at most, i'd get fired. YAY to freedom day tmr, Friday and the next whole week ~

we are the reasons

Tuesday was goooooood! everything went according to plan - school, Oakham (though i waited an hour) with Bernard, met Anna before heading for great grandma's birthday celebration! happy 95th birthday great grandma <3 dad flew to China a few minutes ago without me knowing, miss him alr : (