Be with me ?

yarp long over due pictures from pia's 19th :-) I luv Friday nights and Katy perry has got me hyped up!

Say goodbye to my heart tonight

My confessions came true, it is a great day! Daddy has finally return home but he didn't want to piggy back me around the estate . . . Ok met Damon, Rudi, Bernard and Yu sung for The child's eye, freaking weird ? but well, it was ok. Ha ha but Rudi definitely made everything funnier, joker. Lunch at Fork and spoon, hmm! ha ha ha piano lesson and rehearsal with Sheila, Boon kiat, Wilson, Eng loong, Joan and Natalie. Fruitful, can't wait for the P6 party on Saturday :-) ok back to school tmr and i'm nervous, dammmm.

never ending bliss

Happy !4th Jerald, thank you for your friendship through out the past year, you've been one awesome friend and that is something i can never deny! Ha ha, remembering good times? the first i met you, we greeted with a warm and nice handshake :-) lol remembering shopping? you guys were busy shopping @ Top man, i fell asleep! you and your crazy colored skinny jeans. Oh! and stupid lan gaming sessions early in the morning, pontian!, taking pictures + our master plan!!!! OMG REMEMBER OUR MASTER PLAN? i think it's a success now :-) Thank you for giving me such beautiful memories, have a blessed birthday Jerrrrrrald, love you!

I'm not a stop along the way. I'm a destination.

Lunch with mumsie @ Hansang, Holland :-) I met Liyun, had a great bible study! Ha ha met amber in town. We had a great time eating Muji marshmallows, stalking Xia xue, Borders, Prologue, Papers + permanent markers, Hair straightening (Y) I need to save $220 to buy that straightener, i don't care!!!! Yuppies i went to meet Bernard, Boon kiat and Rudi after their Hockey selections for dinner :-) Jalan kayu prata makes us happy people! I'm happy to end my day well, can't wait for a great day tmrw :-)

a c h e

I love that feeling. You know, the one you get when you take a deep breath and suddenly every thing feels like it's going to be okay. When you feel as hopeless as can be and life is going nowhere, there are those moments we have every now and then when we get this feeling that can't be described, but you get this rush and the world stops spinning for a second and everything is clear and at that moment, you just know. I need more of those moments. Because i hate everything that we are now, everything. People say stuff all the time, some true, some not. But at the end of the day, our heart knows that the truth is. I miss us, i miss how i can say whatever i want but now, no. I'm responsible for my own words and everything is kept hush hush. You like it? I bloody hate it. I bloody hate your insecurities and jealousy cause that's not meant to be. Why not you, why aren't you the one in his position? Maybe because you decided your path, sometimes you should stick to that path and stop whatever we do. Wasn't that the plan? I feel as though i'm running back wards. There's something wrong with me, why can't i just be happy with what i've got? I want things back the way it was in the beginning, i wish i could rewind time, back to the days. not to change anything, but just to experience it all over again. I never know what to say to you when you ask me what's wrong. How can i tell you that you're all i want, and knowing that i can't have you tears me apart? You're the first person who's on my mind the moment i open my eyes after a night of sleep and you're either the reason for my happiness, or pain. There hasn't been one day since you left where i haven't fought the overwhelming urge to put you back in to my life. I need to stop tearing at the thought of that day, do i even deserve this bull crap? God, restore me.

It is easy to be brave from a safe distance

hiak hiak nope, no Monday blues for me today. my Monday was simply fantastic, most importantly, i ate a lot! I had korean food - kimchi pancake, korean fishcakes, kimchi fried rice; best fries forever - guetto garlic; chee cheong fun - shao zhu; durian pancake; fruit juice - honey dew, apple; Ok yes i am fat_girl95@hotmail.com i need to maintain a good diet, gah! but food is my best friend, no?

oh boy i miss you, every single minute :'(

dreams that glitter

Hello Moen, happy 15 th! Thank you for being so freaking awesome and hilarious for the past five years, it's a pleasure knowing you. From stupid times like playing ice-catching outside the conference  rooms, watching G. I. Joe and every body fell sick, toilet talks during alter calls about boyfriends and girlfriends, retarded roller coaster which goes round and round, buffet dinners and photo frames (ought to be guilty, does it ring a bell??) Ha ha, well, my honor to have a supportive buddy like you, coming down for every musical i had. Time seems to fly so quickly ~ Fifth time celebrating your birthday? Hah, that's nice, have a good birthday Moen!

very lost souls

oh it's a great and happy day, sunday never fails. moen's party was good, fun filled sunday.

thunder skies

okkkkkkkkk i am very worn out and i want to sleeeeep now but i'm going to force myself to blog!!! it's a really fun but exhausting day, picnic @ fort canning wooh thank you jesus for giving me strength! it's going to be a better day tmr, more picture on Facebook :-)

Get me away from here , i'm dying

I am terribly sorry i haven't been blogging for the longest time, i'm over the moon, the exams has finally come to an end and i'm partying hard. Well i haven't had any motivation to blog, i sense that dryness which is quite pissing off. I created Tumblr, how surprising: www.blewgoodbyes.tumblr.com

I lead an adventurous life, it's scary! My life is a series of changes. A series of hits and misses, ghosts and corpses. I just realized that i've lost a lot and gained what i've taken. This time next year i won't be this girl anymore, things will change and i create my existence through change.

You're young, until you're not.

To my dearest buddy, Zachary Seah! Happy 16th, you've been a blessing to me for the past year ever since i met you a year ago. though it's just year, it seems like a life time already. it's my second time surprising you on your birthday, what an honor! thank you for the little things, the thoughtful things and the significant things that made a difference in my life. i'm so proud and happy to have a friend like you, every moment spend with you is amazing and you never fail to paint a smile on my face. Being in the same band as you: jamming sessions, big eater + our fav ice milo, mee pok, chocolate and strawberry dreams, Gretsch x2 and rehearsals. Luv you so much Zachary, i'm standing by you forever, promise xx

all you will never know

good morning texts
kisses on the forehead
really long goodbyes
holding hands
silence that isn't awkward
walking up beside you

ok i need to stop missing you

People who expect nothing will never be disappointed

yup sunday! lunch with mia, kat, joan, liwen, liling :-) kenny and sly came over afterwards! max brenner  was good :-) ok i'm all prepared to retain this year, i really am so no tears for me at the end of this year. i mean, i should have expected it since i got myself in to some serious shit during the mid-years right? it's ok, next year will be great. bye bye.

You can't fight the tears that ain't coming

when you love someone, it will always stay there. i have to believe that even though we go our separate ways these two years, we still will be connected by this bond, forever. i'm not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing, but i know it's a true thing. i know that no matter where you go or who it's with, we will always be connected. and when we glance through our memories, we know that it's real and it was why we're who we are now. it's terribly difficult to find someone who completely loves you for the person whom you are. most of the time, i make ridiculous demands and expect you to change the little bits of yourself to cater my wishes. thank you for loving the good, the bad, the disgusting, the weird bits and pieces of me - falling asleep on the phone, being klutzy, the pms-y moments. you're someone worth keeping for the rest of my life. thank you for falling in love with me, falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. you fell in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my hopes and dreams,  how i'm a hopeless romantic at heart and my imperfections. i loved everything about you, the way your eyes smile when i'm with you, the way you'll text me in the morning just to tell me that you hope i'll have a great day. when you are occasionally humorous and provoke the things i say. i love you, will never forget you, come what may happen in the near future. two years, two years will past and everything will be imperfectly perfect for the both of us, i love you so much, bernard.

(me and you) an overflowing amount of history

over due pictures i promised i'll post but didn't, here it is. it's finally friiiiiday thank you jesus! yarp no school for me since there isn't any paper. i fell sick last night, was running a temperature and at the same time, felt nauseous, detest that feeling. i met bernard today, yarp i met bernard today. we went to surprise his mother, celebrated her birthday for her :-) caught Eat Pray Love, boringggg shizzles . . . oh well it's a fantastic day yep yep i have no motivation to blog bye

your love is all i know

can't resist the temptation of not blogging on a sunday night, heh heh. just wanna mention to you guys that my awesome buddy, Elijah Ted Ng, one of Singapore's youngest entrepreneur had an event called Art with a HeART, proud of his achievements :-)  family dinner at Harry's with a game of pool, awesome. i love secret sundays, thanks for the krabby patties!