maybe someday we'll figure all this out

i'm going to stop blogging for the next few weeks, i need to focus on my exams. i've been mugging hard lately, hopefully i do well. my day was alright, productive studying session with jill's after school. isabel, tina and sumi joined us after a while. chinese tuition with jean and anna :) ok dad brought too many chocolates and sweets back from the united kingdom, this is bad.

picking up fights with giants

i am going to declare that this week is the roughest week of my life and nobody can understand what i'm exactly going through because it's so tough. my phone got confiscated today, by my fav baby girl, josie khaw (yuck x 100) you know what? i'll take it as an opportunity, to concentrate on my exams and not get distracted. ok fine i'll probably get a spare phone by the end of this week and hopefully i'll be able to steal my sim card back. i'm only worried about bernadette lim telling me off again cause i'm down with 8 demerit points and if i hit 10 i'm going to say bye bye to st margs. i need to stop getting in to such unnecessary trouble, seriously. i was home before evening today, how amazing, life is good. should i take a nap? but wait, i kind of hate sleeping these days. it's really terrible. it'll be good if they sell drugs that helps you sleep through out the night or washes your memory, that'll be nice. photo booth pictures from ytd's drama night + fruit party btw let's all say no to puffy and droopy eyes!!!!!!!

you were born because you are going to be important to someone

finally, the big day has arrived. i am finally over and done with drama taking theory as an exception, grr. i would say we did a fairly good job. thank you - amber, andrea, laura, grace, vans, dorothy, danielle, nicole, durga, serene, jeanette, isabel, anita and so many more's support, help and encouragement. your applauses and laughter truly helped all of us feel better! and those who were virtually there for me as well, thanks truck loads :) ok time to focus on MT which starts on thursday and SS + ENG on friday ah going mad. i met boon kiat for a fruit party hahaha stop calling me the king of the jungle pls? thank you, and pls save fruits for the poor people in africa cuz they're all dying of hunger, we're going to fedex our left over fruits soon :)

don't leave me all alone because when i'm alone, my imagination runs wild. it runs terribly wild and i can't seem to control it. i had the worse sleep of my life last night. i was just trying to sleep all my problems way but i can't because my thoughts are keeping me awake. when i finally fall asleep, it wasn't too good either. i woke up with shock and fear constantly at every hour, with tears in my eyes, hoping that this is only a nightmare but it turned out to be reality. i wish i could sleep forever, i never want to wake up. two to three years may sound cool but no, things change, people change and it's going to be scary because this is life. i am scared, at every second, i am scared. our time together is just never quite enough and there might come a day when i won't think, miss or wonder about you anymore, and i hope that this day never ever comes. i just came to realize that in the end, everyone turns out to be the person they swore they'd never become. waiting for you seems a life time, but i'll keep waiting cause i know it'll be worth it.

who's my heart beating for?

i love sundays, not. boon kiat made me type that! lunch with liyun, sissy, min ying and bryan lim. sorry bff couldn't head to town to meet your mummy with you and head back to novena :( i met amber, laura and andrea (uh) to study at united square, ben and jerry's is a productive place to do your work. btw andrea's aunt was stalking us from the cafe below, insecure much? pissing off. ok don't want to blog about my night, bye bye!!!!!!

To Boon kiat: hi goggles, whassup. you're beside me, not on a sunday though. boon kiat made me re-blog sunday, cuz he thinks that "i hate sunday" is not cool. thank you for the scrap book, how nice of youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. ok bye!!!!!

I love you more than there are stars in the sky and fish in the sea

smudged eye-liner, blood shot eyes with non-stop flowing tears and mucus, i can't stop crying. what's wrong with me? why did i fall so hard? i never want to fall in love ever again unless it's with you. i gave you my feelings, i did everything for you, and you screwed me over. "you'll get over it" it's the cliche that cause the trouble. I just lost someone i love and this is going to alter my life forever. and in some way, i recognize that i will never be fully over you, and that part of me will always love you. but most of me understands that this doesn't work, and i need to move on to be happy. it's the 26 th september, remember a few weeks ago i said i like the number 26 th? i counted down to today, only expecting this. i've finally understood the real meaning of a broken heart. i've always wondered how it feels like and it really hurts. i've always thought only insane people cries on buses, streets and in front of people. and today, i'm insane. you said you'll never leave, tonight it ends here. i guess my only regret is that i couldn't give you enough reasons to stay.

anybody wanna play hardcore truth or dare with me? i'm free since two hours ago.

If only my heart chose the right persons to fall in love with,

ok saturday was usual, taking the night as an exception hahahaha! i woke up early to study this morning, super productive! i had no voice for the whole morning and my throat hurt quite badly :( i went to meet rudi and bernard, had cakes and tea. i went over to mia's place, haha "fav local food! too many to name!!!" yay here comes the exciting part. met aric to celebrate mid-autum festival by burning lanterns, sparklers, candles x 1000 HAHAHAHA oh and picnic under the stars with sissy :-)

the day i have nobody to love, i'm going to play hardcore truth or dare with my friends. may they be lesbian, gay, homosexual, bisexual, a virgin, a whore or if they're as (ab)normal as me, i don't care and i'm serious. oh have i mentioned to you that i hate the fact that you're a coward who's not proud to have me at all? do you feel ashamed to be with me? cause if you do, shut all your cheap talks. stop talking about things that we're going to do and eventually we don't because actions obviously speaks louder than words. i don't even want to blog about happy times with you since you're so damm bloody ashamed. you must be tired cause you've been running through my head THE WHOLE DAY and all i think about is maybe, i deserve better. GOODNIGHT.

I'm scared because there's only one of you

It's a rainy saturday afternoon and usually, I love rainy days but not today. Right now, I'm on the shuttle bus out of sentosa cove and it's not like I had a choice to live in here cause it's extremely inconvenient and I detest it. This week hasn't been too good. The examinations are coming and I have to work doubly hard. Since my school has decided to close the case, I shall just casually mention it on my blog. My iPod Touch has been stolen and the theif ought to feel remorseful by now. I'm just hoping you'll return it to me because I saved up my own money to buy it and it really hurts. I won't hold grudges, I promise but I miss it so damm much I can't stop crying. Thanks, cheers to a better week ahead with less quarrels and more smiles.

promises and mistakes

omg it's fiiiinalllly friiiidayyyyy!!!!! ok i'm so sorry abt not uploading proper pictures from the DSLR, not that i didn't take any but i seriously can't stand that disgusting and ugly pimple on my chin which makes me look terrible :( it really hurts and i've been complaining abt it for the whole day to bernard, ren zhu, beverly, mum, emiko and even auntie rodela! :'( school was fine, drama practical full technical run was better than expected yay. finally had some real quality time with bernard!! we had dinner tgt and we went swimming at night woo woo woo woo woo hahaha i saw my body guards and they like bernard, bernard happy onlyyyyyyyyyy lol.

Don't come and go. Like all the others.

school was terribly insane, i laughed too much my stomach hurt and it has been long since i laughed so much heh heh heh crazy photo booth pictures with jills, andro, laura and bev! drama lesson was productive, but i am really exhausted after an extremely long day in school. piano lesson was boring! i can't wait for tomorrow cuz it's FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYYY